Holiday wind-down...or up?

I just typed almost an entire post, hit the wrong button and lost it all! I'm a bit gutted as it was the culmination of all the rumination I've been doing over the last ten days of my holiday. About how little I've accomplished. About how I'm going to pull back from the amount of effort I've spent on my job in the past year to focus on learning to be more creative (YouTube - 'John Cleese creativity' - fabulous 30 minute talk), about seeing what I do outside of work as more valuable than what I do at work. My job isn't the worst, but I'm stuck in a go-nowhere rut and feel there's no way out at the moment. I need to explore some and create my own way out or something more satisfying elsewhere. Being on holiday and having less than a full compliment of children around has made this realisation possible. There is relative quiet and time and space to sit, read, watch, listen and mull.

What am I going to do? Nothing specific as yet. Sewing and knitting. The only concrete thing is a 90 minute period on Mondays and perhaps Thursdays where I focus purely on being creative a la John Cleese as mentioned above. And take it from there. I want to learn new skills, break old habits, create things of beauty and excellence. Maybe, once I've managed that, I might have the skill to make a pattern or two for others to use. That's probably my ultimate dream. For other people to be making something I've created, whether for free or as a paid product. I am far away from that level and am not even thinking that far ahead. I haven't that space in my life to do much more than suggest it as something for another time.

Currently, I have a bunch of knitting projects to complete and am about to make a start on one of two sewing projects. Before that, I'm going to make myself clean up my kitchen, which has been in a constant state of dishevellment since I began my holiday. The only thing I've come close to completing is clearing out my clothes. Three large bags to give away. From now on I shall be more discerning. I even spent time working on a colour palette. Next I need to figure out what clothes I lack (answer: most of them). I don't like making schedules and as such, always end up kicking myself for my lazyarsedness if I try.  Things happen slowly for me. Realisations, projects, pretty much everything. I need that time to think, instant answers are rarely the best.

One thing I generally don't mention, as it can be contentious, is food and health. I have a particular area of interest and view point that, although it's getting more popular, is still quite far from mainstream. I also am large of body. I've about given up trying to unlargen and am focusing myself back on eating foods that are healthy and nutritious. I'm quite keen to include that here as it is another set of skills I wish to improve upon.

That's it! Holiday over, really. I shall do that Ranger post later...took photos on Saturday and all, just have to write the post!