Wow, the beginning of the second week! It's late Tuesday morning and I'm still in bed. Breakfast might just be some quick bacon and eggs. I'm not up to much else. Only thing is, there's no one else to make anything for me but me. And my kitchen is a mess because everyone expects me to tidy up after them. I just don't allow myself to be unwell. This time I am. But I'll still have everything to clean up tomorrow or the day after when I'm feeling better. It really annoys me. But it's probably of my own making. No one else will do it and if I don't want to live in squalor all the time, it's left to me. I got angry on Sunday though that no one had made any attempt since Friday to clean anything up. Except empty the dishwasher and put a token amount of dishes in, when it could have been filled properly and run. My partner only decided to enter the kitchen and clean some dishes because I'd got to the point of crashing things around. I was unwell and had already used my energy going to the market for vege for the week. I wanted to sit down and knit and relax but the guilt of a filthy kitchen got to me.
I had gone back to work on Friday evening, despite feeling pretty crappy and then worked an extra hour on Saturday as well. I wasn't expecting to have to clean the kitchen on Sunday in the state I was in. But no one else thinks they should be having to do it. And if I don't do it it would all have been left for Monday for me to tidy up.
I'm caught between my partner being the main money earner and my job paying a fraction of his, plus I don't work a full 40 hour week and he's been doing a lot of overtime recently. I've tried to minimise the amount of housework he has to do to allow him to focus on his job. And then we had a house inspection which I always stress over. He's just done the minimum and not a good quality job either. Perhaps I'm just feeling sorry for myself but when he stayed home with a cold last week he wasn't expected to clean the kitchen, do the laundry and cook meals. The only time he actually does anything is cooking dinner for us two on a Saturday night and for all five of us on Sunday night. And maybe remember to put the rubbish out. And the kids can barely bring themselves to do their jobs during the week, let alone think about doing something extra when I'm not well. They can't even be quiet.
Ok, enough grumbling. That's not what this is about but it is where my head is at right now. Rational or not.
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I cooked up some bacon and eggs and that's all I've had so far. There are some veggies roasting and maybe lamb to go with it. I'm not cooking it so I'm not sure. Not complaining either.
One thing I managed to do today was some knitting. It was really nice to get a few rows done finally after nothing all weekend. I'm feeling better but have decided to have tomorrow off as well. I need to get a full day's food in me first. And as much rest as I can. The cough is there.
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